Kirstie. ♥

Rest in Peace Don Cornelius. Gone but never forgotten. Your name will always have a place in the music business. 

Today seems to be one of those days, were you just wanna curl up in a ball and sleep, but then again go out and have a good time. So ive decided that instead of sleeping at home, im just gonna go out and spend time with my girl at her place, and probably gonna take a nap. :) 

So here is what im gonna rant about today. Girls. There are reasons to love them, and to despise them. In my case, i happen to hate most girls, not because they are “prettier” than me, or because they are more successful than me, but because i a lot to deal with. I speak whats on my mind and im not afraid of what the outcome might be. Some girls find that to be “bitchy” or “conceded”, but thats just who i am. And with that comes having more guy friends then girls. To most people, like the ones i talk to, it just means i get along better with men. But in a girls point of view, it looks a little slutty. But in my opinion i think its WAY better to have a select few “girlfriends” to have in your inner circle. The fewer the better, the more girls you surround yourself with, the more drama you will have to deal with. Not saying that the girl friends you have wont bring you drama, but it will be a lot less then what you want to deal with. 

To rap it all up in a nutshell, be very careful of the girls you have in your life, cuz you never know which ones will stab you in the back! 

P.s. To whoever takes the time out of their days to read anything that i put up. Thank you so so much! :))

I think im gonna start a sleeping journal… it seems like no matter how hard i try and stay awake during the day… i always fall asleep and stay asleep for 8 hours… its getting really bad. Im pretty much sleeping my life away. And it sucks because all i wanna do is get somewhere in life. And its getting to be really hard when im sleeping. 

I honestly wanna sing. I wanna be on stage with pretty lights and people cheering me on do be the best i can be! Most people i know tell me to go for it, but no one realizes how hard it actually is. And i don’t think i have what it takes sometimes. Im so afraid of the word “no”. And im so afraid to be shot down. But I also know that you don’t always get a yes for everything in life and you have to work hard to get what you want in life. 

I also just wanna give my mom a place to call her own. Her whole life has been a struggle with me and my siblings and i wanna make it so she can finally relax and sit back and enjoy her life, in a place she doesnt have to worry about anything. Its alot of weight on myself but i wanna do it for her because shes done it for me. 

This would be the first thing i ever really write down that means something to me. And its coming from the heart. 

Everyday we faces a million new things. Its a blessing to wake up everyday, with people you love and having family you can cherish. 

Everyone loses someone in their life, whether its a family member, a friend, someone you just met, or someone you have known your whole life. One day, in the blink of an eye, it could all be over. But what do you really think of when you lose someone you love? Do you think of the great memories you have with them? Do you blame “God” or whoever you worship? Do you blame yourself? In my case…..i could think at all. Does that make me a bad person? To be told one day that you have lost someone you love, and not have a reaction other than going back to what you were doing? Is it wrong to have not shed a tear? Is it wrong to have forgotten the face of someone that you’ve known your whole life? Right now i happen to be struggling with my emotions when it comes to anything really, but for some reason, i just cant cry. I just cant express how i feel to anyone who wants to hear it. Does that make me a bad person? Cause it sure feels that way… 

How i am going to deal with this, im not sure. but i know my family and myself will get through this. 

Rest in Peace Tia.

Te amo.